Taking of the days

Superscientifiku feat. Peter Umah
Taking of the days, 2002

"Something tells me that I am being far to serious,
Been given far to many fucks,
But what am I to do,
When all I hope for,
Is being close to you,
And my heart just broke in two"

Heartache knows no sexuality

I am listening to Bronski Beat's classic Small town Boy and feel like I have discovered a jewel. Jimmy Sommerville's feminine voice echoes over the synth-pop sound of the early 80's. 1983 to be specific, one year after I was born. The stunning video shows Jimmy as a boy with a cruch on a boy in the local swimming team.

The result efter taking after demonstrating this love: getting beaten up by the object of his love and a few thugs. His father rejects the queer Sommerville, and he is left to contemplate on his situation on the train as the song progresses.

"Run away, turn away, Run away,
Run away, turn away, Run away,

Pushed around and kicked around,
Always a lonely boy,
You are the one that they talk about,
as they put you down.

And as hard as they would try,
They'd hurt to make you cry,
But you never cried to them,
Just to your soul,
No you never cried to them,
Just to your soul

Run away, turn away, Run away,
Run away, turn away, Run away,"

When it hurts so bad...

How much can it hurt when you are left standing all alone? I did not know that it could hurt this much. I feel disoriented and in a state of chock, not angry, just sad. And very confused to top it of. I so wish that everything will turn out for the better. No matter how it turns out. And my heart wants her back. For a sharing, caring and simple love.

To comfort myself I bought a dirt-cheap maxi single with Donna Summer today. Starring the famous track Love to love you baby on 12-inch vinyl. What I did not know was that she on this extended mix does the porn thing with the "oohs" and "aahs" over disco-legend Giorgio Moroders production. It's nothing new under the sun in other words, artists yesterday as well as today have to sell on sex for commercial reasons. No matter if it is 1975 or 2007.

But Summer does manage to capture the feeling of hurt when your love is gone. Beyond her image, there is substance and poetry. In the track Full of emptiness she puts out the feelings beautifully.

"Full of emptiness
broken promises
and love turned out so sad
the hurt goes on and on

Full of emptiness
hello loneliness
good friends will mind
the sands of time have slipped through my hands

From the bottom to the top
why he had me feeling fine
then I took a long long drop
when he walked out of my life"
Full of emptiness - Donna Summer