The V-Stone

The V-Stone
Originally uploaded by Suecae Photography

This piece of concrete is part of local museums art exhibition. I found an angle I liked and let the sun provide the lighting. To my eyes, this is a V. I got there trough trying different kinds of composition.

The Primitive Voice of Techno

I became involved in a discussion yesterday at the Modplug message board. The board is dedicated to users of a specific type of musical production programs; called trackers, which I have been using for several years as my main tool to produce music.

The author of the tread mentioned a new book by Russian author Martynov, who explores the theme of repetition in music. Using techno as a reference I think I can see an underlying relationship between tribal music of different continents and the very modern incarnations of dance music. Although the differences are obvious: the cultural, instrumental, and melodic differences are sometimes vast. Some things to me seems very much alike though. There are the repetitive phrases, the mesmerizing focus on rhythm and movement, and the idea of music as a potential vehicle for ecstatic experiences.


The artist Ame with the minimal techno track Rej, originally released 2005 on Sonar Kollektiv.

The achievement of different states of consciousness when dancing to repetitive music is still very much witnessed all over the world. I have written before about how night-clubbers and spiritual dancers relate before, inspired by the portrayal of Muslim Sufi's in the french documentary Blues de l'orient.

I believe that the techno producer who lets a kick drum build the foundation of an entire track are building upon an ancient practice, which probably would pay close resemblance to the original spirit of music as it was in the dawn of humanity. I also think that some of the appeal of modern dance music is that it speaks with a voice that attracts us in on very fundamental level.

I am also known as Skjór

Skjór
Originally uploaded by Suecae Photography

I found this young magpie outside my apartment on the lawn. It had yet to learn how to fly, and therefore was forced to explore the immensity of the world from the ground, vocally encouraged by its parents.

Thoughts on mental illness and melancholia

I have been reading a lot of thoughtful and noteworthy blog-post as of late. I want to share posts from two different blogs that have provoked my thought and let me reflect on my own life and experiences.

Sally Mandy over at the Blue Kimono have written several memorable posts about depression; or melancholia as she prefer to term it, and her experiences with this subject. I recommend you to read it, as it brings up how melancholia can manifest itself and that it also can mean a lot of things for different people.

"For me, running from suffering causes much more suffering. That includes running from depression. It feeds compulsion and addiction. Holding out for an impossible sense of joy and happiness is a setup for disappointment of the highest magnitude."
- The Blue Kimono

I have been on medication for depression and anxiety for quite some time, and I know that some are helped by these kinds of medicines and others are not. One of my personal lessons of living with issues such as these, is that a strategy for health has to be multi-faceted and individual.

Someones path might lead to lead them to specific religious teaching, another one finds comfort in a support group in family and friends, all of which might be completely wrong for a third person. If we recognize that each and every person holds the key to his or her health, even if they might not find it on their own, I think we might grow a profound respect for what it means to be human. Personally I have come to think that we create our own medicine trough our thinking and actions.

Also, why is suffering considered to be inherently unnatural? The thinking that it does not belong to any normal persons experiences can cause very much suffering as this ideal does not recognize the richness of many peoples experiences. To diminish whatever troubles us into something that should not exist denies the one thing it really amounts into: the human experience.

Bleak outlook - Photo captured last day of 2008

"I have spent much time contemplating the life of the homeless and mentally ill. Their current circumstances, as well as the history that has led them to sleep on the street, in SROs, self-medicate, and speak and listen to voices, intrigues me. I feel for them. I understand them. I am them."
- Thoughts on Life and the World

F. Monique Pitre writes on the topic of homelessness and mental illness on the blog Thoughts on Life and the World. With just a few words she manage to capture what I feel to be a very valuable truth. While we are different on many levels: underneath our different experiences we still all come from one source.

If meditating on the oneness of our existence might seem strange to you, maybe thinking a while upon all the things we have in common is easier to grasp. How it is that when we peel off more and more layers of culture and ways of living we are essentially so much alike?

While we do need to affirm our right to be different, choose different paths and live different lives, even live separate and defend ourselves, we are also breathing the same air and have the same color of blood in our veins. This understanding might be used to develop a greater compassion towards those around us.

Essentially mental illness is not something that only happens to others, and separating ourselves from a reality that affects all of us in one way or another does not offer real protection.